Burned My Wedding Dress | Britton & Carolee Beckham: The Ritual That Transformed Our Sexless Marriage | #155

This Mormon Couple Was Told Their Marriage Was Beyond Saving - Then Plant Medicine Changed Everything

The moment Carolee Beckham stood before 12 Mormon men and told them they'd "missed the mark," she knew there was no going back.

For years, she and her husband Britton had followed every rule, completed every penance, and endured every shame-filled process the Mormon church prescribed for healing infidelity. The result? Her trauma got worse, not better.

What happened next shocked everyone - including themselves.

When "Doing It Right" Goes Terribly Wrong

Britton and Carolee's story began like many Mormon marriages: young couple meets at church, marries within a year, starts having babies. But beneath the surface, something was deeply broken.

The church tells you 'no, no, no' your whole life, then when you're married it's 'go, go, go' - but they give you zero tools to actually connect, Britton explained during his recent appearance on the Sex Reimagined podcast with hosts Leah Piper and Dr. Willow Brown.

The pattern was devastating: Every pregnancy brought another cycle of infidelity. Every confession to church leaders brought more shame. Every attempt at "healing" through religious channels left them more disconnected than before.

After their fourth child was born, Carolee was done. Not with the marriage - with the system that claimed it could heal them.

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The Mushroom Ceremony That Changed Everything

In 2019, everything shifted with one psilocybin ceremony. The next day, still in the afterglow of their plant medicine experience, they attended church and witnessed something that made their decision crystal clear.

We saw the indoctrination so clearly of what was going on with these young children, Carolee recalls. We just sort of looked at each other. We were like, we're out, we're done.

That was their last day as practicing Mormons.

But leaving the church was just the beginning. The real transformation came through a combination of plant medicine therapy, somatic healing work, and the courage to completely reimagine what their relationship could become.

From Betrayal Trauma to Sexual Awakening

Carolee's journey from sexual disconnection to full embodiment reads like a textbook on religious trauma recovery. Raised in purity culture where showing shoulders was forbidden, programmed to believe women’s bodies were responsible for men’s desires, and carrying unhealed childhood sexual trauma - she entered marriage with zero access to her own pleasure.

I call that life my past life, she says now. It's my past life in this life.

The transformation didn’t happen overnight. It took MDMA-assisted therapy when they were planning separation, somatic work to heal childhood abuse, and ritual ceremonies to release old programming - including burning her Mormon temple wedding dress under a full moon.

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The Results Speak for Themselves

Today, Britton and Carolee run "Reframing Infidelity," a program helping other couples heal betrayal trauma without shame-based approaches. They’ve authored books, launched a podcast called "The Magical Story of Us," and are building a 46-acre retreat center in Colorado.

More importantly, they’ve created what they call a "magical" relationship - one built on conscious agreements rather than religious obligation, individual healing rather than codependence, and sexual connection that honors both partners’ sovereignty.

Key Insights from Their Journey

• Religious Trauma Requires Alternative Healing: Traditional church processes often perpetuate shame cycles rather than creating genuine healing.
• Individual Healing Comes First: Both partners committed to their own transformation regardless of whether the relationship survived.
• Plant Medicine as Relationship Medicine: Ceremonial use of psilocybin and MDMA facilitated breakthroughs that years of traditional counseling couldn’t achieve.
• Sexual Awakening Takes Time: Undoing decades of purity culture programming requires patience, somatic work, and often professional support.
• Conscious Relationships Are Possible: Even marriages with severe trauma can transform when both partners choose awakening over staying small.

What This Means for You

Whether you’re dealing with religious trauma, betrayal patterns, or sexual disconnection in your relationship, Britton and Carolee’s story offers hope that transformation is possible - even when traditional methods have failed.

Their approach focuses on healing root causes rather than managing symptoms, using both ancient plant medicines and modern trauma therapy to create lasting change.

As Britton puts it: This isn’t just about healing. This is about awakening.

Listen to Their Full Story

Hear the complete conversation on the Sex Reimagined Podcast with Leah Piper and Dr. Willow Brown. Britton and Carolee share intimate details about their healing journey, the plant medicine ceremonies that changed their lives, and practical advice for couples ready to transform betrayal into awakening.

Their story proves that when you stop trying to fix what’s broken and start building something entirely new, magic becomes possible.

LINKS & RESOURCES MENTIONED IN THE EPISODE CAN BE FOUND ON THE WEBSITE: https://www.sexreimagined.com/blog/Mormon-Couple-Plagued-By-Infidelity-and-Religious-Trauma

EPISODE LINKS:

• Britton & Carolee's | Website
• Britton & Carolee's | Reframing Infidelity Course
• Britton & Carolee's | The Magical Story of Us Podcast
• Carolee's | Star Magic Astrology
• Britton's | Limitation to Liberation Coaching

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